Done.

Hello, there....

Did you miss me?

I miss me, too.

I miss the whole me.

The complete me.

The happy me.

I do not like tough times.

I've never felt so broken.

Will it get better?

I hope so.

I believe not.

But I know better, deep down.



I saw this just now, and I thought maybe I should fill it out, write a little something about my feelings...I try to make this a happy, uplifting place, but right now, it's not in me. Please excuse, close the page, whatever, if you don't wish to read on.....cuz I don't have happy right now.



I AM.....broken.

I KEEP.....trying.

I WISH I COULD.....be happy.

I LOVE.....life?

I DANCE.....not well.

I SING.....with my son.

I THINK.....very random thoughts.

I REALLY.....don't want much.

I NEED.....comfort. sleep. rest. peace. happiness.

I SHOULD.....be more.

I CAN.....do it.

I LIKE.....to smile. to laugh. to love.

I MAKE.....stuff when all is well in my world.

I ALWAYS.....say, "Well, at least....."

How to Generate Love in Life.

Sorry, but I have no idea where I got this photo from. Oops.

It seems that some need lessons in this more than others.



Forgive. Forgiveness is a wonderful way to release the past and love unconditionally. To be at peace with the process of life, draw a line behind you and free yourself of limitations. Move forward to new beginnings.



Be still. Be still in moments of confusion, fear, or anxiety. Focus on your breath. The solution will come forth in the stillness.



Meditate. Sit quietly, breath deeply, and visualize your heart as a blazing orb of light.



Love yourself. Look into the mirror, see yourself as if for the very first time and say, "I love myself unconditionally."



Journal. Protray your feelings to understand who you are and your view of the world.



Hug.

*Hugs relieve pain, fear, and depression.

*They increase health and happiness.

*They provide a stretching exercise to short peopel and a stooping exercise to those that are tall.

*Hugging does not upset the environment.

*It saves heat and energy.

*Hugging makes happy days happier and impossible days possible.



Fall in love. Fall in love with everyone you meet. Enjoy th elove others have to offer.



Be of service. Be selfless in service to others.



Go here: www.wikihow.com/Generate-Love-in-Life for more info and where I found this.

This is what love looks like.

The photos isn't the greatest......but this is love in a tangable (ible?) form......pink slippers with rubber bottoms. Yup. That's love. Kev and I had a date today, yes...again, and he told me he needed to stop at Wal Mart and I had to sit in the car. See, last night, when I went to pick him up from football, I showed him that my slippers had holes in the bottoms and my feet were wet....so here he came out with a sack with a brand new pair of slippers much like my old ones, only better. Just because he could. Just because he's Kevin. I love this kid.

Really.

You know, words are something that once you say them, they are out there, and you can't take them back. Therefore, I think it only makes sense to say words that are NICE, words that don't hurt people, words of encouragement, words of love. Why point fingers, magnify faults, accuse? Why find negative things? Why not positive? Words, my friends, can cut like a knife. I think a knife could actually hurt less in many, many ways. Use them wisely, for you never know what you might say that could uplift somoene, or what you might say that could really just cut them to the core. Be very, very careful with your words. I never ever want anyone to be the victim of my words. I know no one is perfect, but it really takes talent and effort, I think, for the most part, to be downright hurtful and viscious. I'm still reeling from some very strong words that have been said to me, words that I try for the most part to overlook...but sometimes, it's just hard. I guess today is one of the harder days.

My Best Man....

I got to spend some quality time with my boy on Saturday. I love this kid. (Even though at the moment I could choke him. Why do 15-year-olds have to act like 15-year-olds?!?!?!?!) Anyways......we got to spend our "car time", we ate Chinese (WAIT until you see what my fortune was!!!!!), we did some errand-running, lots of talking, and just had an over-all super "date" together. He loves me, takes care of me, cares about me. Tells me I'm pretty, gives his input on my appearance (honestly....), and notices lil things that most boys don't notice. Have I said I love this kid????? Cuz I sure do.

Happy Monday...it IS a good day!!!!!

My Sunshine.....

I don't get to spend enough time with this kid. We got to have some quality time together for a few hours yesterday morning, then today, she's been flitting about, just being Ms. Anna Pants.

While I was out spending some quality time yesterday afternoon with my boy (that post will likely come tomorrow) the sisters had some bonding time with the camera and the pumpkin I found at the local grocery a week or so ago......

I took the photo of her with Abigail the other night.....Anna finds it hard to call her "Abigail" and therefore calls her things like "Abbybelle", "that girl", and that "toodle" (she can't say "poodle"). The "toodle" is by far the cutest, as you could imagine.

I find it hard to believe that yet another weekend has flown by, and another week fo work looms ahead...though it is not looming as it has in the past, thank heavens.

Here's some quote-y goodness for you today....maybe they will help you remember what is important throughout the week like they do for me:

Normal day, let me be aware of the treasure you are. Let me learn from you, love you, bless you before you depart. Let me not pass you by in quest of some rare and perfect tomorrow. Let me hold you while I may, for it may not always be so. ~Mary Jean Irion

Do the best you can in every task, no matter how unimportant it may seem at the time. ~Sandra Day O'Connor

Small kindnesses, small courtesies, small considerations...give a greateer charm to the character than the display of great talents and accomplishments. ~Mary Ann Kelty

Exude happiness and you will feel it back a thousand times. ~Joan Lunden

Be pretty if you can, be witty if you must, but be gracious if it kills you. ~Elsie de Wolfe

The real winners in life are the peopel who look at every situation with an expectation that they can make it work or make it better. ~Barbara Pletcher

I have become my own version of an optimist. If I can't make it thorugh one door, I'll go through another door - or I'll make a door. something terrific will come no matter how dark the present. ~Joan Rivers

If I make a fool of myself, who cares? I'm not frightened by anyone's perception of me. ~Angelina Jolie

Have a super week, and happy Sunday! :)